Transition of mindset is incredibly powerful. I could be in a unique state of optimism right now, but I'd like to think that I can set up shop here and make positivity my default.
The summer was unexpectedly difficult in terms of my mentality. Negativity is addictive. What's more, oftentimes we don't even notice that we're becoming habitual skeptics. A series of dramatic changes in my life left me feeling depleted and emotionally exhausted. I wasn't necessarily acknowledging this outright either. The changes I went through weren't all bad (some, like getting married (!!) were wonderful), but ultimately I've been craving rest and have felt that I've been missing it.
I'm coming to terms with that our emotions are not linear, they don't often make sense, they don't have to be rational or rooted in anything logical... they're just emotions. I've spent a lot of energy trying to rationalize how I feel only to be more tangled in exhaustion. What I've learned is this: I am a complex human being and I can feel both grateful and weary at the same time.
As long as I try to cling to what is good and make an effort to bask in life's little joys, I'll be okay! I can feel more than one thing at a time. I can practice gratitude and still be burnt out. I can have a bad day and move on from it - it doesn't have to follow me into tomorrow...
The summer has been a blessing to me in many, many ways. Yet, the coming transition of seasons gives me a sense of renewed hope.
Things that have been making me happy lately:
wine with my husband
sitting on our balcony
reading (always a happy thing)
the 'minisodes' of my favorite murder podcast
cloudy days
cold brew
going on walks
saturday mornings to myself
taking photos
journaling
xx,
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